My day isn't going as well as it should..
Joshwa's counsellor will be having a home visit today.
This home visit is stressing me out
that I can't think straight. We have to make a
good impression kasi kung hindi I don't know
what will happen. Although nakapasok na si
Joshwa sa program kailangan pa rin maganda
ang impression nya sa amin which really
makes this house visit really important to us.

Pati yung part time job ko affected na.
Nahihiya talaga ako sa boss ko na palpak ako..
Aminado ako kasalanan ko talaga. Sabihan ko
ba naman yung client nang "Im sorry I dont
know" (Bawal yun eh never say I dont know)
Di ko na naisip isagot yung standard answer.

Di ko naman masabi na sorry kaya di ako
nagiisip ng maayos at lutang ang utak ko
kasi stressed ako may home visit si Joshwa.
Syempre pakiaalam naman nya kung may iba
akong issues di ba. Personal na yun at di ko na
dapat idamay ang trabaho ko.Di na ako nagtangkang
magpaliwanag kasi bottomline is kasalanan ko
talaga.

I know im supposed to focus on the job at hand.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko that I can't think straight
when I'm under pressure. (which again is not
an excuse for my mistakes) Then I end up looking
stupid. Syempre pati rin boss ko napahiya. I know
kinuha nila ako para makatulong ayoko naman
isipin nila na di naman ako nakatulong dagdag
lang ako sa sakit ng ulo nila. I'm really doing
the best that I can.